Srila B. R. Sridhar Maharaja – A Dream
I had this dream about five years ago, I just stumbled upon it in my diary this morning, and I though it was worth putting here. As the dreams go I don’t have too mystical approach, I don’t read too much into them, but when spiritual personalities or situations happen, I’m always happy. I just appreciate that my mind has some spiritual occupation in a dream, instead of being completely in maya. So the dream:
For some reason, I can’t recall how, I was able to get darsan with Srila Sridhara Maharaja. Overwhelmed with awe, reverence but also joy, I entered his room. He was sitting in the wicker chair. He looked different from the pictures I saw – he was younger, maybe forty five years old, maybe fifty, but somehow I knew for sure, it was him.
There was one more devotee inside. He was asking some advice. Śridhara Maharaja listened patiently, and when the devotee finished, Maharaja turned to me.
“You answer” he said.
I almost fainted, I was so excited, happy and scared. I wanted to do it right, so I asked to hear the question again. The devotee was wandering about the choice of a guru. He knew two Vaisnavas and he wasn’t sure which one was right for him.
I knew, I couldn’t really quote sastras very well, so I decided to speak what I feel. I said that choosing spiritual master must be based on the heart. The scriptural knowledge has to be there, but the most important thing is the feeling. A feeling brought us to Krishna consciousness in the first place, so we should trust it on the remaining part of our spiritual path. Krishna is in our heart. When we are sincere, we hear him, as the voice of the heart.
I was going on for a while, watching Maharaja out of the corner of my eye. I was relieved to see that he was nodding with approval. When I finished, he quoted a beautiful verse confirming what I just said (I wish I remembered it:).
Then the devotee left and suddenly I was alone with Maharaja. He was very mellow, peaceful, so soon I relaxed too. He asked about my life, what I do, if I’m happy. It was casual and at the same time very spiritual. When I told him that I’m connecting myself with Tripurari Swami, he was very happy. He said that Swami will take good care of me.
I woke up.
For some reason, I can’t recall how, I was able to get darsan with Srila Sridhara Maharaja. Overwhelmed with awe, reverence but also joy, I entered his room. He was sitting in the wicker chair. He looked different from the pictures I saw – he was younger, maybe forty five years old, maybe fifty, but somehow I knew for sure, it was him.
There was one more devotee inside. He was asking some advice. Śridhara Maharaja listened patiently, and when the devotee finished, Maharaja turned to me.
“You answer” he said.
I almost fainted, I was so excited, happy and scared. I wanted to do it right, so I asked to hear the question again. The devotee was wandering about the choice of a guru. He knew two Vaisnavas and he wasn’t sure which one was right for him.
I knew, I couldn’t really quote sastras very well, so I decided to speak what I feel. I said that choosing spiritual master must be based on the heart. The scriptural knowledge has to be there, but the most important thing is the feeling. A feeling brought us to Krishna consciousness in the first place, so we should trust it on the remaining part of our spiritual path. Krishna is in our heart. When we are sincere, we hear him, as the voice of the heart.
I was going on for a while, watching Maharaja out of the corner of my eye. I was relieved to see that he was nodding with approval. When I finished, he quoted a beautiful verse confirming what I just said (I wish I remembered it:).
Then the devotee left and suddenly I was alone with Maharaja. He was very mellow, peaceful, so soon I relaxed too. He asked about my life, what I do, if I’m happy. It was casual and at the same time very spiritual. When I told him that I’m connecting myself with Tripurari Swami, he was very happy. He said that Swami will take good care of me.
I woke up.
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