London, baby?

   

     I’m seriously considering moving to London, at least to see how it's there. My room here, in Liverpool is paid until September the 5th, so I could leave some of my stuff here, taking to London only basic things, like ukulele and tooth brush:) The idea came today. I was chatting with a devotee friend who lives in London for couple of months. She stays in a squat, doing some odd jobs, busking... Don’t know what else. She said that another devotee might have a room for free that I could stay in and try to find a job there. She said she could also get me a bike, so I wouldn’t have to spent money for the commute.
     It is tempting I have to say. Here I feel so lonely, it hurts. I think in London there are even some of my god-brothers and god-sisters.
     Sometimes, when something doesn’t work, it’s good to reorganize, regroup and try something else. Let’s see what’s the situation with the flat, I’m waiting for a replay from that devotee, I wrote him today.
     This afternoon I was learning a Hare Krishna bhajan on ukulele. I picked one of my favorites, by BB Govinda Maharaja. I remembered the last year retreat with Guru Maharaja, the bon fire we had that time, bhajan, and I was thinking how nice would be to play it for devotees now. But it’s ok. The next year I’ll have a big collection of Hare Krishna tunes, I’ll make people happy:)
     I have an appointment for Monday to see a counselor. I’ve found this place, where they organize courses to rise self-esteem and help to deal with the negative thoughts. I thought why not to try, but after today conversation with the friend I think, I just need some good company. Still, if I don’t go to London, I’ll try it.